First and foremost I would like to say thank you for visiting my website. I hope you find value in my story of OCD, my posts and that you share these on to others who may benefit from them.
My name by the way, is Martin (aka Margo)! I have been living with anxiety for what feels like most of my life. I was always a timid child, quite clingy and never had much confidence, always believing I wasn’t as bright as my peers,. Through being bullied all through childhood, it really impacted upon my self esteem! It took me until the age of 24 to gain a little confidence in my own self and my abilities. This was after I was accepted onto a University programme (with virtually no qualifications I might add – my experience as a support worker for adults with learning disabilities secured me my place) to train as an Occupational Therapist.
I graduated in 2009 after three wonderful years of being a student! University had been almost like a therapy for me, and when it came to an end much of the life I had built came crumbling down. This is when anxiety and depression started to take over my life. It began with depression, but shortly after I started experiencing intrusive thoughts and worry that bad things might happen to people and it ultimately be my fault. It was in 2010 that it got to a point where I struggled functioning in day to day tasks, and was diagnosed with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD). My story of OCD can be found here in full.
It took me years to work on my recovery, and don’t get me wrong I am still working on it today…but, I have been working alongside many mental health professionals in the NHS over the last 4 years to educate them on my story of OCD, the nature of OCD and anxiety, how it can manifest and what they can do to help people like you, and me! You see I’m passionate about making sure that these professionals who people like you and I depend on to make us better, truly understand the struggle we experience. The trust we must place in them! The confidence – and our confidence in ourselves too. It’s my experience that mental health professionals don’t always realise that therapy is a two way street….the therapist MUST work at the therapeutic relationship just as much as we invest our time in them and our therapy.
I want to be a role model for others, I want to show people that being diagnosed with anxiety (OCD, in my case) is not the end. There’s a big wide world out there that you are entitled to live in and experience, just as much as the next person. You CAN and WILL regain your life, bit by bit and that’s why this site has been created.
If you’ve read this far and can resonate with my story of OCD and anxiety, and the contents of the site then please share the pages of it on your social networks, or email or just tell a friend about it. The more people who can read my story, the better 🙂
Thank you and I look forward to speaking to you all, whether by blog post updates, comments or via my own social networks on Facebook or Twitter.